Music Choice of the Day: Sacrifices, Fabolous
What's It Gonna Cost Me?
Wow! It has been a long time but I definitely want to thank you all for your views and readings. Hopefully, my words are timeless to you...meaning they can be read at any time and still have validity.
A few updates before I jump into it! Well, A project entitled Lessons Learned will be published by 2015 so please be looking for that soon! It is a great goal of mine to allow my story and lessons to be a blessing or a word for someone to take in and learn from. I am a transparent person not for purposes to be judged but to be a living example to young women who yearn to be successful and for young men to understand the complications of being a young black woman with sass and zeal and where it all comes from! I also encourage you to take your pain and turn it into a testimony as well!! That is a true difference between a believer and a non believer; what one does in correspondence to pain truly shows what type of person one is.
And last but not least, I have many more thank you's I would regret not mentioning. Dr. Jade B. Gillespie, and of course to my beautiful mother, Ruth Moore. Also, to my Bronco Family. I do everything in your honor.
My soul wants to tell you all so much. So bare with me for I have no order, I will just come straight from my finger tips: ....
"What Will It Cost You\\Me?" ... derived from a chapter in Lessons Learned called "It's Cost Me A Lot", a title inspired from J. Cole Friday Night Lights mixtape release. I have seen my most trying days in my current state. 2013 was a year of my greatest losses and most honorable wins. Ironically, a great loss can outweigh any win recognized by man. So, I live and cease to loose my main focus in all that I am involved in...because I have a whole family depending on my success, a weight I put on myself not by choice but by God's. So I take on the heavy weight, I take on the ridicule and I just continue to press forward. Now do not get me wrong. I have not taken action toward adversity the right way now. I actually have acted out horribly this year but hey!!! It's life. "Lessons Learned"! Growth is recognizing your fault, asking for forgiveness and moving forward in grace..God's grace because man has no grace. You're their topic until someone else is the fool of the week.
All in all, I want to believe that the year two thousand and thirteen made me someone I never imagined I would be but in all actuality, I made myself with my decisions, my relationships and associations. Women have the gift and vice of being able to create a facade of being goal oriented when we actually are .... but we have underlining goals that are much more important like true love and mental stability. I am not a victim to that mindset but a victor. Success to me is not green like money, or pink and red on Valentine's Day but colorless. I realized this year, that I will be successful by all means in the realm of love and family. It warms my heart to envision my future family and journey to love and I will continue to build upon a foundation of stability to get to that point. I do not know how long it will take, but I know it will cost me. It will cost me friends, it'll charge my patience and I know for sure that it will COST ME A LOT...but I will spend my 2014 investigating how it will [really] cost me.....
